My past, my future and now.

I'm glad that the darkest hours were over. The weeping, the sorrows and the heart-wrenching period were in the past. The ray of sunshine finally shine at me. I want to thank all the people who were there for me when I needed listening ears and shoulders to cry on.

For you:

I want to thank you for letting me suffer the pain so that I know I can endure and live through it.
I want to thank you for all the fun and happy moments together.
I want to thank you for all the promises that you made.
I want to thank you for all the ups and downs we've been through.
I want to thank you for telling me the truth before we ever do any serious decisions.
I want to thank you for the days you made me wait for hours and the days you left me when I made you wait.
I want to thank you for the moments that you left me and did not even look back.
I want to thank you for leaving my feelings in mid air and constantly giving me hope that didn't exist in the first place.
I want to thank you for letting me know that my temper is that fucking bad and I have to change.
I want to thank you for telling me that you are not able to decide whether you will cheat on me or not in the future.
Finally, I want to thank you for letting me choose whether to leave or not to leave.

Letting all these go were the hardest decision I had to make but it was the best decision I've made so far. And I know I will be able to make better decisions in the future.

Love yourself and be loved by others.

Confessions

I should not have felt this way but I am. It's bothering me. Maybe it's just rebound feeling but it's so strong. I mean I've just died in one relationship. There no more extra life for me. I've got to stop. It's all just a dream because I'm not thinking straight. Maybe I just wanna have one to override the pain I had. It still hurts so much. So so much.

To people who had their hearts ripped off before, kudos to you all.

The Chapter ends.

"Some love stories aren't epic novels, some are short stories. But that doesn't make them any less filled with love."
- Carrie Bradshaw

The chapter ends. I never thought that I can feel this way. It's a strange feeling. It's like being torn apart. One still loving you. One not able to forgive you. Love. It's never logical. Our love is like fireworks. When the sparks were high up in the sky, everything looked so beautiful. But when the fireworks faded, our love turned and walked away.


To the people who ever fell out of love, tonight, I'm joining you guys and gals.

The regret that follows.

I miss him so much.

Everytime when he messaged me, I wanna kill myself for not replying. "Is he gonna message me again? "

I keep asking myself...can I forgive him?

Heartbroken.

When love dies.

Shocking to my core. I've heard so much about it from others but I never really thinking it is gonna happen to me. I'm really lost. All the things he said seems like an excuse now. The worst part is that he doesn't even want to do anything.

"If you don't wanna forgive me, I understand"

What am I suppose to say? Am I suppose to say " I'm okie with everything." Smile but dying every minute inside?
I have to study, face my friends, face my colleagues. I have to smile. Smile my live away because I know I'm dying inside. My heart is writhing in pain every single second.

It all comes down to the last decision.
Should I throw away all these coming 3 years? Leave him and get on with my life? I'm so lost.

Love yourself and be loved by others. I try to believe in it.

H&M craze

Angela N Me!

HuiXin N me!

Ah Ber N me!

QinJie N me!

Super Vain in H&M. Not even buying anything. Just occupying space.  

Bored Bored Bored!

TGIF....my ass. Still have studies tml. Waiting and waiting... So tired...